Conversations with a 4 year old

(Pic is from when Paige was in NICU. She was born at 2lbs 6oz. And is truly a miracle)

This morning I took Adam to work, as it is one of our homeschool park days and I need the van. I normally take Paige with me since she is such a tormenter. It gives the other kids a break from her. LOL

On the way there Adam and I were talking about his mother. Paige doesnt know her. Actually, None of the kids have met her, and neither have I. Adam hasnt seen her since he was 16, and just recently started talking to her. Well she and Adams 3 brothers are moving here in June.

So Paige must have heard us talking and on the way home asked me "Where is your mother?" Which breaks my heart into a million pieces because my Mom was an AMAZING Grandmother and Paige would have adored her. So I told her " She is in Heaven with Jesus." She then asked "Did she bring all her stuff with her?" So I laughed and tried to explain to a 4 year old that we dont take anything with us when we die. She listened quietly then replied " I used to be in Heaven with Jesus , then he told me to come to you, so then I started walking." Which made me laugh, but also made me wonder if she remembers anything about the other side of the veil? And then I wondered how long  it would take one to walk here. LOL

Ugh.....

It's Monday and already this week sucks. I woke up with a major headache, and it is the 1st day of Spring Break week. Which being homeschoolers normally brings no big change for us. But this year with Bryleigh going to a charter school they are off this week, which means she is home all week. Now dont get me wrong I love this kid. She is sweet, and kind, and loving. But she is the worlds biggest mess maker!!! Everywhere she goes she leave a trail of stuff behind her. I drives me NUTS! I have tried everything, and nothing works with her! So right now we are having time out. Her on her bed, and me in the office so I can cool down. Because also with this I have her 1/2 brother who has HUGE issues, who refuses to listen and made a huge mess in the basement while suppose to be watching a 15 min video (and doing nothing else) while I made lunch. Followed by my almost 6 year old who spills her cup all over the table at every meal. I know giving her a sippy cup would be easier, but she REALLY needs to learn to drink from a normal open cup!

Then on top of all of this. Adam started that new position today at work. HATES IT! I hoped he wouldnt but in my heart I knew he would. An Aspi doing a job which has people calling you on the phone yelling at you all day. Ummmm No! He hates talking to people on the phone as is because he cant see their face (  he has worked really hard learning facial cues) Then add they are are mad, or even just may sound mad. So he is having a very bad day :(

I hope everyone is having a better day then us, and enjoying their spring break!

Enough Already!

I have no idea what this awful sickness is going around my house, but I would really like it to stop now!
Paige has been sick for weeks! And Sunday I had her and Corey in the Dr office. You do have to love a ped that is open on Sunday mornings though. We are suppose to just keep giving her breathing treatments, and watch and see. The round of antibiotics did NOTHING.  Corey came in telling me his ear feels funny. Which due to Coreys AMAZING pain tolerence means his ear is infected. Yup, really bad I guess. Well at least he isnt upset over the pain like most people would be. LOL

 I was sad to miss Church as it was fast Sunday which is my favorite!

Now I have another one with a runny nose, and yet another one with a hacking cough, and I feel like YUCK!  So my house is being shut down and no one will be allowed in until the kids are all healthy. LOL

My vanishing act :)

(Ignore any typos I am on pain meds. LOL I had dental work done yesterday)

Like is getting back to normal. Well normal for us. LOL Had a very rough few days. Adam got a job promotion he didnt ask for, nor wants. People on the autism spectrum HATE change. Change is BAD for Adam. So in turn, Adam is a total wreak! And since I am a safe place I get to deal with the aftermath. So after him freaking out about something little, he text me that he wanted a divorce. Tired of drama, I replied a simple "ok". Every text that followed I replied the same way. Old me would have freaked, and started a HUGE war. I am learning to pick my battles. So gratefully he was able to see what was really going on, and calm down. We are not getting a divorce:)  And I didnt even have to point out the amount of child support he would have to pay, nor the slim dating pool he will fall into with 9 kids. LOL Or the fact that he would stll have to put up with me anyways in the eternity.

My Church drama has been solved. The offending party apologized, and all is well. But it was okay even before the apology. Heavenly Father has a way of making me listen even when I dont want to. He knows exactly what I need, when I need it. ( Imagine that! LOL) It came in the form of a simple random email from someone that I know had no idea what was going on, asking me if I still wanting her to teach me to crochet. It made me calm down and sit and take a look at the big picture. Plus a beautiful baptism Sat night for a amazing family in our ward that are adopting the most precious sibling group, mixed with a nice talk with my Bishop, and then dinner with another friend from Church and her sister that was filled with great conversation and laughs. Mix that all up and you have me getting over myself :)

I am grateful for all my blessings, I am even grateful for my trials as they truly help me to grow and learn.