Well that didn't last :(

Last week was just awful :(  Bradley has been getting in so much trouble at school and twice last week had to be removed from the classroom for raging fits, and throwing the toys off the shelf all over the room. He put the other kids as risk for being hurt, not to mention himself.  I kept him home Friday to see how he would behave, and he was fine. Well not fine, but nothing like he was doing at school.  So I am not sure what is going on there to set him off. He had an appt for his med check Jan 12th. I called to see if they had anything sooner and got the " Sorry we are all booked up" So I told them "Fine, I will go have him placed on a 23 hour psych hold because I know then you have to get him in there within 24 hours after his release". Well then magically an appt opened up for Monday! I know their game now, I will not be put off. So we will go tomorrow and I will bring all his paperwork from his trouble at school and see what she says.

Elayna has been in whine fest mode all week. She is homeschooled now. I just realized I didnt blog about that! Short version, her teacher decided teaching just wasnt for her and was not coming back after Thanksgiving. Which since we had finally all got on the same page and Elayna knew it this made me so upset. So a letter came home with the new teachers name on it. I pluged it into Facebook, assuming that it will all be private but hoping she had a profile pic so I could t least show Elayna what she looked like to help with the change. Boy was I in for a surprise!! It was not private at all, and awful. Post's about how she hated teaching, and on and on about all kids of things I didnt want to know about. So I let the Principal know that she may what to make that all private. I didnt want to see her talking about how awful my kids class was one day. So he talked to her. How do I know. I went on to show my husband and there she was calling me a nosy B%tch and her and her friends going on and on about how to assault me. I printed it out, and handed it to the Principal  along with a withdrawal form. Well he called to tell me they were no longer hiring her, which I appreciate but Dh and I think it is best she is home schooled right now anyways. I am not about to have to start over with a new teacher this year.

Onto Bryleigh. This week has brought multiple fake illness. No idea why, but it is really irritating LOL.

So yesterday I went shopping alone. On my way home I drove past our 1st house. A 1200 sf 4 bedroom, in a run down neighborhood.  I cried all the way home. I brought Emily and Corey home from the hospital to that house. I planned for Paige's birth in that house.... Life was wonderful in that house. I had never heard of PICA or Reactive attachment disorder, or dealt with a raging 7 year old for 8 hours, or had my home destroyed, my marriage rocked, and my sanity shot. I cried for what once was......

Please understand I love ALL my children. But sometimes it just feels like I am drowning and have no idea how to find a life preserver. But I will get over it like I always do, move forward and find joy in my journey.....



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