Getting our house in order...

‎"If our houses are not in order, let us set them in order. Let us renew our determination to honor God and keep His commandments, to love one another, to make our homes the abiding place of peace. Each of us can contribute to that in the homes in which we live." ~George Albert Smith

I have been so bad about blogging lately. But for good reasons, I have been getting my house in order. I have donated over 20 boxes and large bags full of things (with more to go this weekend). I have been sorting, and scrubbing, and making our home a place of order and peace.

Our life has been so chaotic these past 5 years that I have shut down and thrown in the towel for the most part. So now I am working on taking my life back. I have learned more about mental illness, child abuse, and what drug exposure can do then I ever wanted to know. But what I do know for sure is Heavenly Father sent these kids to us for a reason. And when I stand before him one day I want to say I did all I could to give them the best life possible.

Yesterday one of Bradley's support managers suggested we turn him over to CPS and basically give up on him. That is just not going to happen. Tomorrow he see's a new psychiatrist that I really like. It is actually Layna's Dr. She has been so wonderful with helping us help Layna, I pray she can do the same for Bradley. I see hope in him. I see improvement , and I cannot give up.

Last night I got him to sit on my lap and watch a movie. He actually feel asleep on me. THAT IS HUGE! For a child like Bradley to trust me enough to fall asleep on me, is a huge step. I am his mother and I will fight for him to heal and be healthy. I wish I could remove all the damage, all the hurt in their past. I hope one day to find out why these precious babies were made to suffer before coming to us. But only God can answer that......

I have a lot of peace in my life that I haven't had in a long time, a lot of hope, and a lot of joy in this journey....


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